I'm Your Aunt Krissy

I don't know how many of you were fans of the show Friends, but Scott and I loved it. There was a line I love when Monica holds Ross's son Ben for the first time, "I'm your Aunt Monica... and I will always have gum!" I've used that line so many times. I couldn't wait until my friend Kendra's son could chew gum. I kept asking him to ask his mom if it was time. Finally the day came and Aunt Krissy showed up with gum. We have been calling ourselves Aunt Krissy and Uncle Scott to the baby. I've had a cold since she has been here (mostly gone now), and after a coughing fit Scott told her, "This is your Aunt Krissy, she will always have a cough." I died, too funny.

We have ownership in this baby. I didn't realize that would happen. I know, you all did. I kept saying it will be fine when she goes, and it will. But I also didn't realize just how hard it will be. I think about her first night away and... I can't. I want to cry. But I keep in my mind that the family who will receive this precious package cannot wait to have her. They will take care of her, give her a good Christian home, and love her with everything they have. Just as it should be.

I learned that the legal notice was published for the birth father - his opportunity to step up, otherwise his rights are relinquished. Can I tell you how hard that is for me? That the man who has blood ties, but no emotional ties, could come for her? I have been keeping a journal for Baby's mommy and I put in there that my heart physically hurts when I think of that. That I'm praying like crazy for him to never come up. That if he does I'll be fleeing to Mexico with Baby and I'll hand her over there. God help us.